Today we headed off to the GI facility off Garfield for
David’s scheduled procedure. Before we headed out, David shaved his arms and
hands and upper chest (wonder if I’m supposed to tell). He is so tired of
having tape and monitors ripped off, pulling hairs, ouch, and leaving behind
sticky residue. (and then the tape/needle didn’t go into any of those spots!)
Since he couldn’t have any food after midnight, I try to be
thoughtful and not eat in front of him. I knew there was a small café that
closed at 2 so I could get a bit to eat there. That didn’t quite work out. By
the time he was checked in and I went out to walk and eat it was 1:30. Oh, food
is only served until 1:30. Great so I only got a small prepared snack and went
outside to sit in the comfy seats to eat and relax since it’d be closing soon.
Who said it was to be 70 degrees. It was cold. I did stay out for awhile
because there was a noisy kidlit in the waiting room. If it had been a little
warmer, would have been nice. I finally went to the car to close my eyes for a
few moments. It was about 90 minutes and got the call that David was ready.
Things we hadn’t heard before. When David was originally diagnosed,
it was stage 4 cancer, the tumor in his pancreas was already in arteries.
Incurable and inoperable, which is another reason PanCAN (Purple Stride
#wagehope) works for funding for early detection. Because usually this late, is
it.
Today the doctor felt there was basically no change since
his first ERCP. This is unheard of and the doctor could only shake his head and
say how pleased he was to see David, it’s been a miraculous nearly 2 ½ years
since detection. He really did seem happy to meet both of us again, after such
a long time.
He did three things today, looked; biopsy; removed the
plastic stent and replaced with a metal stent. My heart dropped upon hearing
about the metal stent. My understanding was this was a last stage effort and it
could not be removed/replaced and it will eventually clog (clogs less than the
plastic and lasts longer). The doctor said today, metal stents can be removed
and he told David that they could even insert a smaller stent into the current
one. I don’t know if this was to reassure us or just what. The toss up is David
can not continue to get the infections that turn sepsis, this is very dangerous
and in this case more serious than the cancer.
I asked about the radiation, would it have been better not
to do it. Since he is the doctor that inserted the fiduciary (wait, that’s
financial, was it fiducial) seeds for the radiation, he said he would have
voiced his objects at the time. It is really hard to say. There is no way to
know what David’s situation would be if he hadn’t had the radiation. And while these
recent problems of the bile duct are due to scar tissue from radiation, who’s
to say what positive role the radiation played.
Basically, he has no opinion on David. He is not following
any “normal” course of pancreatic cancer. Hard to make recommendations when he
has survived beyond the anticipated course, as other cases have gone. It was
almost fun to see how perplexed the doctor is.
Right now, David is sleeping. He is on liquid until
breakfast. He has asked me 4 times when can he eat. He’s still a little out of
it. I made a stop at the store to get some jello and broth. They weren’t clear
about him taking his diabetic medication so I’ve made an executive decision,
don’t take any, he’s not eating. I’m not going that route again! I’ll make sure
he checks his blood sugar a couple times tonight.
My feelings, a little sad and depressed but also forever
optimistic. And because David loves baseball, here’s my analogy. While it seems
David is into, not the final innings, but extra innings, and I’m not sure how
many inning’s this game is going to go. I’m going to enjoy every extra inning
play!
Please keep up the prayers, because frankly, that’s the only
explanation for this phenomenal existence.